C.C and Lelouch looked at one another lovingly.
This would decide everything, and they both knew it. So, Lelouch turned away from her,
looked towards his parents and said, "This world that you are wanting to build without lies is
NOT the world that Nunally or Euphemia would've wanted. This world would be a nightmare for everyone
becuase lying is the only way that we can protect things that we hold dear. If no one were able to lie
then it would be a world void of choice, and freedom. This sick plan of yours is a nightmarish illusion
and I WON'T be a part of it!!! Charles looked at Lelouch and began to laugh, "HAHAHAHAHA! You think
that this will sidetrack me from this perfect world. Lelouch, you are still but a mere child, and are truly
unaware of how wonderful the world will be. You have not suffered any true pain, and can in no way
comprehend the magnitude of this world of no lies, no masks, no illusions." Lelouch ,who was looking at
him with a calm reverie the entire time, quickly shot Charles a look of anger calmly said, " You,
would have done this had me and Nunally been dead....that is the mind set you had. You already believed us
to be dead!!! You didn't look for us, or  try to protect us...it's almost as if you WANTED to die out there so that it would
be easier for you."Marianne seeing where the conversation was going quickly interjected, " No, we loved you both
but, after all that commotion we couldn't go look for you and we had to assume..." Lelouch interupted Marianne,
"NO! This was preconcieved...don't try to fill my head with sugared lies. You went into Anya's body and had
every opportunity to tell us you were still alive to save us from the pain and persecution, and you..." ,turns to Charles, " You
took away my title and shunned me from the royal family. You were not a father...you were a murderer. This world does
not need to be controlled by your joined delussion. Too many have died, and in the end it will amount to nothing."
  "It doesn't matter what you say our plan will come to fruition. I have the strength of Geass and only someone
with my strength can do this", said Charles as he stretched out his hand with the symbol of Geass and mentally commanded
the tower of the twisted dead souls to connect the World of Geass with their World.
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Lelouch:
He's right I don't have his power, but there has to be something I can do. I have to save the world they both wanted. I have to call out the darkness within me to save this world.  What irony that is. The darkness that hurt everyone I loved will somehow save the rest of this world. I know what I have to do yet...I'm afraid of what will become of me once it is done.
Will Suzaku still be by my side after this? Will he continue to hate me all the same? Do I have the strength to command all these twisted bodies eaten away by Geass to stop this? I just don't have an answer...this moment...I have to sacrifice something. I can't grant her wish, and I think she knows it. Please, forgive me I have to sacrifice something and this seems to be the only choice. I live to make you free ,but I guess for know I will enslave you once more. I'm sorry...
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 Lelouch looked towards the heavens and shouted with all his might, " I Lelouch Vi Britannia, command you bodies tormented by Geass to be liberated and destory those who believed in this hellish plan!!!" Lelouch's eyes both shined with the light of the Geass and immediately the tower of bodies began to break apart and turn into orbs of light, which fell like snow. Marianne and Charles looked at their tower of bodies in shock and Charles immediately turned around and screamed, " You have ruined everything!" Marianne cried out, " No, it can't be happening. This isn't happening...our dreams are all gone." "Lelouch you are such a fool...by doing this you have destroyed her." Charles says as he points towards C.C who is sitting down and rocking back and forth.
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C.C:
My monster is revealed. This horrid past of mine never seems to escape me and it just never ends. First the Nun, thenMarianne, and finally Mao. Lelouch can not be part of this world that we created. Huh?!? What is this feeling? It's almost as if there is an emptiness inside of my body. Wait am I going to disappear? Is this the way I will die? I wanted him to kill me, but yet at the same time I did want to be by his side until the end. No, I won't disappear...I don't believe in the world that they wanted to build. I believe in Lelouch's world, Nunally world, and Euphemia's world. This world will only have me open to attack...everyone would want me to give them the Geass when it only belongs to him.
I want to stay by Lelouch because I...I love him.
I will stay by him until the end no matter what...I want to help him build a different world that has a future even if that means that I have to lose him in the end.
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  C.C looks up and responds, " No, it seems it will just be the two of you disappearing."
Charles looks confused and as Marianne screams in panic he sees that she is disappearing, and
he is beginning to disappear as well. " no, No, NO, NO! You were part of this plan, you helped create those children,
and you wanted this world without lies." , screamed Charles. C.C shakes her head, " No, you both knew of my past and
you used that to your advantage...I want Lelouch's world. That world is one with a future...yours is empty and void. So disappear along
with your dream." As that was said the Geass on C.C forehead began to shine and they began to disappear more rapidly. Charles
was already half gone and he angrily lunged at Lelouch grabbing his throat," NOOOO!!! I will live...there is no possible way that you can do this to me. This dream will come to fruition. You can't do this!!!" Lelouch looked at his father and his eyes began to glow as he said, "Checkmate..."
They both disappeard and Lelouch turned to Suzaku, "Tell me that you will stand by my side and I will do whatever you want, as long as, I can give Nunally a world in which she can live in." Suzaku gripped his sword and picked it up towards Lelouch's throat, " You always wanted to win...I guess this means that you want to lose." Lelouch smiles and said, " No, I just want to give the world a better future." Suzaku put down his sword  and gave it to Lelouch, " I will be your knight, but if any way you stray from the world that she desires I will be the first to strike you down." Lelouch grabbed the sword and as Suzaku kneeled in front of him he knighted him and said, " I wouldn't have it any other way..." C.C looked towards the planet of Geass and sighed as Lelouch called her to him. C.C walked towards him and said, " Now what do we do..." Lelouch smiled, "We fight and conquer. We destroy and build. We die and love. That is all we can do now." C.C nodded, " Then let us begin our revolution..."

                    C.C stood by Lelouch's side as he discovered the true face of his parents. His mother who he loved and his father who he despised became vile and selfish creatures right before his eyes. This ladder of corpses that reached towards the heavens as if begging the gods to let them die was a monument of this. She had helped create this monster and just looking at it made her regret all the stupid dreams Marianne and Charles filled in her head. They used C.C pain and her past to get her support. Watching Lelouch discover one of the darkest secrets of her past brought about an indescribable pain in her chest. This was C.C greatest sin and who knows how long she had been caring it. This pain of all those who died to attain Marianne and Charles dream....
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                  I feel like at any moment Lelouch will turn around and say that he hates me for giving him the power of kings. He will kill me for lying to him. I feel like my legs want to buckle from looking at all those corpses. How could I get caught up in such a childish dream that has no realistic value? Lelouch looks so dazed...he looks the same way that he does when he is planning an attack. Right now I really do want to die...I want his hands to wrap around my throat and just take all the breath right out of my body. All these corpses, all these familiar faces, all these horrific faces are haunting me. Lelouch...I'm sorry...I didn't think you would get here and see all this.
                  I hid away in my mind so that you could have the opportunity to kill me. I remember when Charles offered to kill me and I was so easy to accept because I wanted you to never be able to see this. This horrible Frankstein that these two created by killing so many people...I won't say I am innocent....I killed anyone who feel in love with me and tried to rid myself of them...of course after I left Marianne and Charles I killed no more.
                 But everytime you killed someone and came back from your moment I didn't have the heart to tell you where all those people truly went to...they didn't go to heaven...they didn't go to hell....they went to a place where they would continued to be controlled. They came to this place and added to the fruition of Marianne and Charles dream. Somewhere up there are the two that you loved most in this world...at the highest reaches of that ladder is Euphemia and Shirley. Thank God you can't see them....Thank God.....
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         Marianne and Charles explained to Lelouch the wonders of the ladder which C.C helped them create. Marianne tried to make a plea to Suzaku that this monstrous thing could bring Euphie back from the dead. C.C turned to Suzaku and saw him slowly lift his sword and grip it tightly. He was going into a blind rage at what Marianne said, but all the while Lelouch turned from his parents who wanted an answer as to whether he supported them or not. Lelouch looked at Suzaku and then looked at C.C who looked at him sadly....
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                    I see what he is going to do and it saddens me because now I can see everything else that is to come...this Geass connects me to his actions and his emotions...No I am wrong....it is my heart...I have watched him for these past years and knew that at any point his future could have changed...I wanted it to change...I always believed in plans more than the men who created them because history has shown that man can make mistakes, grow old, get weak, get captured, die, and be forgotten. The plan, on the other hand, can survive thousands of years and change the way the world sees the next morning. I have witnessed many men die before my eyes and because of their weakness die. 
                   Zero made people fight and defend the plan to be free from Britannian rule. But, at the end of the day I still saw him alone and lose all those he held near and dear to his heart. I heard his screams of anguish, looks of confusion, and tears of pain. The moement I felt something in my heart for him I knew that his plan in no way was something I could kiss, touch, or hold...it couldn't bleed or feel any type of pain or even cause me to feel an aching without him....is this truly.....

(To Be Continued......)

          Lelouch's mind was in a spin. All the things he had done so far...was it all for nothing?
He looked at what was before him; corpses grotesque and where one was thought to end another
began...it sickened him. Yet, what sent Lelouch's stomach churning was the look of his mother and
father smiling at this ladder of corpses which was seemingly going towards the origin of "Geass".
They looked upon him and spoke of an idea created long ago and excuses for the actions they took.
Lelouch felt the conversation to be above and beyond him.  He continued to look at them, but  began to
lose himself in his own thoughts.
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         The moment I killed someone using the Geass I knew I was turning into something else.
Changing into something, that would be hated by all. Even though Suzaku is
here at my side the look in his eyes towards me are of pure hate. On the other hand C.C my
guardian who gave me this power tied to together with one wish for herself has changed since
we first met. She never hated me, but kept herself cold and distant. Yet, she has a different look
to her eyes...I can't quite place what it is....

         All the same every time I have ordered someone to their death I've grown accustomed to smiling
at their weakness. The moment brings a thought of "stupid" lambs to the slaughter. But...I remember
that first time...all those men... all that blood...When it hit me in the face I was shocked at first,
but it was soon replaced by a smile that brought about those "thoughts" of slaughter.
Euphie's death caused by my hands caused me to break...I wanted the world that she envisioned.
I unknowingly used the Geas which possesed her to kill  and she became a threat to all those she loved...I had
to pull that trigger...I couldn't let her be a puppet to a command she couldn't fight...I had to....no matter how
much it hurt...My sins...I keep a count of every single one...ever single life that I've taken since that first moment. No life was spared by this power...

      Wait...what was that...did they just say If Nunnally and I died this would fix it...wait they ASSUMED we were...they didn't care for our lives....
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                Lelouch looked at Marianne and Charles while he thought of what to do next. This was now, in his mind, a game of chess. His responses were his places to move and their responses would either give him an opening to what their weakness was or corner him into submission. The later of which he wouldn’t allow to happen.

So Marianne looked at the ladder of corpses lovingly and excitedly said to Lelouch, “This beautiful ladder will connect our world and the world of Geass together. Oh, everyone will be unified in thought and no one will be able to lie or hide anything. It will be the most perfect world!” She looked at Lelouch wanting him to agree when Charles said,” This ladder is made by all those who have been under the influence of Geass and have died. Their souls can bring about this connection by one who has a strong Geass and can control them.” Marianne then replied joyfully, “The connection is so strong that it can bring those who have died into our world again. Suzaku, you can then be with Euphie once more…” Suzaku gripped his sword tightly and Lelouch turned away from Marianne and Charles and looked towards Suzaku who seemed to be in a blinding rage at what Marianne told him, and then he looked to C.C who looked at him sadly. Lelouch smiled at the fact that C.C knew what he was about to do…she always seemed to know. How funny…

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                  In every person’s life there comes a time when they must put aside selfish desires and care for the future of others. Their weakness is exposed and I have to end this plan that will destroy everyone’s future. Everyone needs to lie to either protect something they care for, or to keep themselves safe, even to survive. I know that this is true because of the fact that Euphemia, Shirley, C.C, and many others have lied to protect me or themselves. Lying is crucial to a human beings power of choice. This perfect world isn’t the right world that Nunnally or Euphemia dreamed of…this gives no one the power of choice…this gives them a private hell...My monster will now have to be a secret savior to this world...C.C.....Nunnally...I'm sorry....

(To Be Continued)

Lelouch sits on his throne and my heart hurts inside. Staring sadly upon him I know that this will end too soon. I want to stop him but I can't and all I wanted was for this moment to not be the only way. Had he not put the Geass on Euphemia things would be so different and he wouldn't have to die. But, maybe I am just getting ahead of myself and this still would have happened anyway just with someone else being the cause of his death. I...I have to stand here and watch him commit this suicide. That is all this is...just a planned suicide...why??? I don't want him to be immortal but at the same time I don't want him to die. These feelings are so juxtaposing that just the thought of trying to understand it is causing my heart to be in more turmoil. I will stop and just become numb.
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Lelouch walked into the room and there C.C stood looking out the window and she looked perplexed. He stood there for a moment and soaked in all that he was doing and slowly walked towards her and she turns to him with the most innocent and missing eyes that his breathe stopped short.  It was the same when she kissed him that day before he met Suzaku and was discovered as Zero. For that moment he thought of C.C as the most beautiful thing his eyes had ever seen. She then said, "You don't know...Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in...Somebody won't let go...." He understood what C.C was trying to tell him and he shook his head and grabbed her hand saying, "The truth is that all of this is painless compared to the things I have done."
C.C heaves a heavy sigh and replies, " No, it'll hurt when you become part of my memories...a part of.." Lelouch interupts her, " I'm sorry but there is no other choice for the things that I have done. But, I do want you to be as far away as possible when the day comes." C.C looked at him as if she was confused and he continued, " I want you to think of me as the man that you see today because after today I will not come back her." C.C replied," WHY!?!?!" Lelouch smiled and said, "You are one of the only two people who I will ask to forgive me for the transgressions that I have commited. Please, let me have this..." C.C turned her back to Lelouch and he knew that this was the end of the conversation and turned around to walk away when he heard steps walk toward him. Lelouch was in mid turn when he was abruptly turned back around and C.C grabbed his hand and told him,"Please, hold my hand and whisper my name...this is the only way that I will let you leave this place." Lelouch smiled and grabbed her hand tenderly. C.C continued, "I will pray that somehow you find a way to live.......for me." Lelouch entwined his fingers with C.C and said her name tenderly, like a lover would before leaving on a long distance trip. He then let her hand slowly and walked out of the room.
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(1 Year Later)

I am walking away from all that is happening and know that in a way I could be considered a coward. Yet, Lelouch was right and it was better to rememebr him as he was that night. He never returned after that night and I sat every night haunted by my conscience. Today is the day...I can feel it deep within my heart and I walk into the church that began this journey......
It is empty...It is the same as I had left it...and I knelt down and began to pray to the only gods I knew. I prayed,
"God, if there every came a time to give a person eternal life it would be now...
If there ever came a time when love should conquer all it would be the moment that they try to kill him...
If there ever came a time when a miracle should happen and that prayers should be answered it would be right now..."
Tears I feel them streaming down...No I have to keep praying he can't be dead yet...no not yet...
"You don't know. I'm  aching. Keeping it all in and I don't want to let go because  the truth is it isn't painless...Letting your love show
I'm breaking down. Give me some time.... I don't want the fear to confuse me...Right now, it's so wrong but maybe it's all in the future with....Someone like him..Maybe truth, maybe lies...it all made me want him...maybe dumb, maybe wise... I don't know? Just save him please...Please...PLEASE!!!"

I was becoming lucid and tears just kept streaming. My heart felt like it was being torn in two and I knew that he was gone....
My Love Lelouch..my dark prince....
 

          I walk into the throne room that had people going in and out of it all day. This moment as I walked I felt like I did then when I walked into the church to meet the nun. I felt a sense of unease...would he go back on his promise now...would we both die in this moment with broken dreams. Lelouch is just sitting there and both of his eyes are glowing red but, I can't see them so well as he is looking down at the ground holding something in his hands. Lelouch slowly looks up at me and his face looks battered and tired. My heart begins to break just a little yet, my face does not betray my feelings and I continue to slowly walk towards him. 
          Lelouch lifts whatever is in his hands and I continue to walk towards him not paying any mind to what he is holding until the last second. The gun equipped with a silencer shoots its one and only round and hits me right in the heart. I drop to the ground and shock runs through my body as the burning takes over. I can't stop myself from screaming and writhing in pain. Lelouch begins to walk towards me his footsteps shaking the ground and making my head spin. This is the second time that someone has done this to me in holy and respected grounds. At this moment I am angered and when he kneels down lifting me up in his arms I can't help but spit in his face.
          I open my eyes to see his face and am expecting him to look  accomplished at the pain he has bestowed but, Lelouch only looks at me sadly and lovingly as he wipes the spit from his face. Lelouch face gets closer to my wound and he kisses it. My mind is so confused. Why all this caring for me? The pain running through me is getting more profound as it is trying to heal my vital organ and then he grabs a dagger and stabs my stomach. My eyes open wide at the pain which is just too immense and working hard to heal me.
         I scream at him, "WHY!?! WHY THE HELL ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?" Lelouch smiles sadly at me and whispers into my ear, "I want to see if you could really handle this immortality and what you would look like if I killed you."My head is still spinning with so many emotions confused as to what he said and the meaning to it. Lelouch moves away from my ear and looks into my eyes as he pulls out the dagger and my eyes began to water against my will. Lelouch continues to stare into my eyes and says quietly, "When someone shoots you or kills you in any way, shape, or form  you are truly human. No one can save you from the pain that you have to go through to heal and it always hurts. So, do you still want to die this way? Dying by my hands or living and knowing you are not alone?" 
         The pain was ebbing away and I could hear the question but, couldn't quite understand why he was asking me this. I told him I wanted to die. But, the moment I had my chance I backed away...why though? I looked into his eyes and saw the pain Lelouch held so close to him like the dagger that he thrust into me but, it could never be removed. My hands stained in my own blood reached out to his face and brought his forehead against mine.  I replied, "I think I want to live loving you. I want to live to hear your voice and see your face even though it saddens me to see you so saddened. We have become one in pain and journey but, I want you to live as well. This plan you have may kill you though...so, I will sit here and watch knowing that this is for the world and that you, like Atlas, will bear the world on your shoulders until you can not hold it anymore and die."
          Lelouch closes his eyes and seems to be drifting off to sleep as he whispers to me,"Then I won't kill you..because...it is not what you truly desire.You desire for me to love you and I do...deep down I always did...for giving me this power and for standing by me." Tears begin to stream silenlty from his eyes and I wipe them away and bring him closer to my lips and kiss him. "Thank you Lelouch..." Lelouch kisses me back and stands up lifting me gently off the ground tired but still trying to take me back to the room. I wrap my arms around his neck and wish for the life of me he was immortal...just so that the whole death would be a quick and painless ordeal...but, I know that it won't...he will die...for me, for Suzaku, for Nunnaly, for all the world...

                   
               Euphemia sat down and contemplated on what was to come and, with her proclomation of the New Area for the Japanese, she still could not shake off the urge that something bad was soon to come. These days and all the planning, that went into this moment that she was fervently waiting for not a minute from now, went by so quickly. Yet here she was still unable to shake off all the anxiety. Maybe that is what it was...anxiety. This cold chill, the thought of death, nothing but anxiety of the reaction of her people at this plan she worked so diligently on being a blessing and not a curse.  Euphie wished Suzaku was here already...her knight...her love...to tell her that everything would be fine and that he would protect her. Yet, as the seconds ticked away  and she prepared for the speech she was about to make, death waited with sweet anticipation to carry her into its bosom and take her away from this world. 
             Lelouch Lamperouge, put on his mask  and walked into his knightmare. Orders were given to be prepared for what he said was, " a trap in disguise." Euphemia was making a big mistake by calling him out to help and be one with Britannia. He agreed but only had one thing in mind when he did this...a plan...maybe Euphie would betray him and kill the Japanese. Yet, even as he thought this it quickly went out of his mind. Euphie was not cold enough to kill these people but, she could be a puppet for Schniezel or Cornelia or someone else. There was no way that King Charles or Schniezel would allow this...there had to be something else going on. So, as he headed to the arena which was made for this event, he went ready for battle. 
           Euphemia stood in front of all these people and knew at once that she was doing one of the things that no one ever thought she had the sterngth to do which was, create peace between the Elevens and Britanians. This would be the day they would remember as the best day of her and all these people's lives. She began her speech and knew that they were all wary. Unsure of the strategy of Britannia. Scared that it would lead to their deaths instead of their hopes. Euphie was nervous but kept going and soon all the people believed and finally she asked for Zero's help and to come to her and sign the treaty to show his support and belief of this. Secretly she knew Zero was really, the long lost brother she adored, but to all these people he was Zero the miracle. Zero the Saviour and she would keep it that way. Once she proclaimed this everyone went into a joyous and frantic search. They looked into the skies as people would look for God to see if this was approved and it would be a sign of good intentions if Zero came and was a part of this.
          Zero here's Euphie's call as his Knightmare is not too far away and slowly coasts to her. As he gets down he sees her smiling face and his worries dissipate.  He steps out of his Knightmare  and Euphemia welcomes him with open arms. He tells her quietly that he needs to speak to her in private. She finds it a bit odd  but, sees nothing wrong with it and walks towards the command centre not far.  Zero gets searched and is cleared of having no weapons. Euphie hears people whispering some of the things that she catches before she walks with him to the command centre is, "shoot him if anything seems wrong...", "He may try.." and, "He may Kill her...". She gets a cold shiver as she walks into the room with him and feels like something bad may happen...but, she ignores it.

Euphie:
I hope he isn't mad. I didn't say anything about him being my brother to anyone not even my own sister...especially not Suzaku. I....think he is mad about something else.
Lelouch walks silently behind me and I sense something bad but I just think it is me thinking about it too much. I go into the command centre first and he follows. I ask him, "Lelouch, is everything okay." He won't  take off his mask even though he knows we are in private. He doesn't trust me but, that is okay...I will win his trust..I know it. It is silent. I turn off the security cameras and lights in the room. He takes off his helmet ...I am about to tell him something when he screams at me, " You liar...you traitor..you are no better than Clovis. You know what...I knew this would happen...You are their puppet Euphie." I am in shock..."What I am not their puppet! They approved of this and most importantly I am doing this for the peo..." He interjects " NO you are doing this for YOURSELF!  What do you think would happen if you shoot me?" I know automatically what would happen and he sees it on my face. "Yes there would be a revolt." he pulls out a gun and I tell him, "You wouldn't shoot me.. I am your sister...I love you."  He smiles, "You're right but it won't be me doing the shooting it will be you. HAHA HAHA HA" 
I get close but he pulls away. I tell him, "Lelouch, I have lost my power as princess...I can never attain the throne...I wanted this. I threw my royal line away for these people. I WANT there to be peace...please...please accept this as a sign of  apology to you and Nunally. See, if this works, we can live together without fear. I want that..." He scoffs at me says, "You are so stupid" I laugh. He talks about all the things we could do to help the Japanese.  Leouch then tells me that he could have made me shoot him...it didn't make sense...I would never shoot him... then he tells me about Geass and how his can make people do whatever he commands. He jokingly says, "I could have even commanded you to Kill all the JAPANESE..." I look it him and laugh but in that same instant I notice...I notice something red all around his left eye...my body suddenly goes numb and then a voice in my head says..."KILLL THEM ALL. They are outside kill them all..." I double over and scream.. who's voice is this...it's mine but it isn't mine... WHY wait..what am I doing why am I grabbing the gun... Why is Lelouch crying and trying to stop me...What is going on...my body..this isn't me..THIS ISN"T ME!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!
 
The blood was everywhere...all these people were screaming..running..from me! The people that I gave up my throne for. The people I would never kill. I can't take this it's all a dream. This can't be real...it just can't..I can't handle it...

Why am I covered in blood? I can't remember..LuLu oh, LuLu tell me what is going on? Wait... what are you doing...what is that gun fo...r?
 
*BANG* BANG*

I can breathe... what is this for my body feels so weak I don't want to be here these tubes all of this...why? Where is Suzaku?  I turn my face and it hurts..he looks at me with those eyes I love but he is sad.
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                Marianne and Charles walk  towards V.V and I. Marianne walks towards me and Charles smiles at V.V as he grabs his hand and they walk toward the lake to speak. Marianne looks at me and says, "What is your name, slave?" I am perplexed by this small child's bluntness but, I remind myself that it is only becuase I am a slave that she is allowed to be so outspoken. Marianne continues to stare at me and then comes closer to me and says " Did you not hear me? I SAID what is your name?" "Mistress, my name is C.C.", I replied quietly.  She smiles at the word mistress and says, "Come with me C.C we must speak privately." I walk behind her silently and as I look at V.V I hear his voice tell me, "She knows.."  
                    I smile at the prospect of a new person to be part of this neverending and unfulfilled pact.  We continue to walk and as I look up I realize that we are in the woods away from the castle and away from anyone who could hear us.  Marianne turns to me and motions me to sit on a rock and as I do so she slowly walks behind me and begins to stroke my hair. Then in the silence I hear  something metal go  through something soft...the pain hits me and I fall to the floor as blood rushes out of my mouth. She walks in front of me and stands there her smile so calm and unperterbed by the sight of blood. My eyes loose focus with the pain and I close them...I hear her pull out whatever she pierced me with and sit down. She seemed to be waiting and breathing ever so slowly...my body burned in the area it was wounded and suddenly I was alive again. I got up sat on the rock covered with blood and looked at her coldly and said, " So, you wish to have the power that Charles has?"  She laughs at me and says, "No...I wish to change the world..." "So, why kill me and try to prove that I can't die if you don't want this power?, I say this and she smiles at me and replies, " I never said I didn't want the power I just said that I didn't want his power. You see Charles and I want to change this world and destroy the lies that corrupt us from the time we are born into this royal postion. We wish for a world with no lies and that can only be achieved by using you both and making a pact with you." I pondered this thought of a world without lies and thought that maybe just maybe it could stop the suffering and cruelty of this world. I thought of how different things would be and how you could hide nothing and if this was achieved they would need my mark to  become immortal and then they could kill me. This prospect for one of nobel blood seemed farfetched but to me it was a way for me to die.  I gave her the power of the Geass and she promised to kill me when it was achieved. From then on I was no longer her "slave"... no, now I was her confidant.
               V.V & I began the plans which would create their dream and as Charles started to make his way to the throne. Marianne on the other hand began to go out more and make a name for herself and was known as the most loving and sweet creature of the empire. It was all a facade though and even when she had her children it seemed that her mind was no longer on them but on attaining the power of the gods. Once Charles took the throne as Emperor of  Britannia his mind changed as, well as his actions   We continued to work on the Sword of Akasha and they continued to think of each other. At night when I sat by Marianne while she slept, which was by her request, she would whisper his name in her sleep. It  seemed that they were falling in love with each other more and more as the days passed. With their noble births it wouldn't be such a bad pairing for them to be together as Emperor and Empress. But, as V.V explained, the more they fell in love the less likely they would be to following their part of the bargain and they would soon leave us with nothing. I did not worry about it and it really didn't bother me because it was bound to happen with these two. V.V on the other hand was not as nonchalant as I was...he wanted what he was promised and told me one day ,when he saw how Charles looked at Marianne when they walked by as we sat by the lake , that he would do anything to keep them from each other...even lie to him.
           One day, Charles had left Marianne rather quickly to do some bussiness and I stayed by the lake looking at the moon that shone beautifully on the lake. Marianne suprisingly told me to leave her side and go spend a little while by myself and that she would call be by turning on the light of her bedroom as soon as she needed me. I lay there on my back thinking of the wonders of her little boy Lelouch and how he seemed so much like his father but yet still different in a way. Right now, they were savoring the fruits of years of turmoil and had never seen what Marianne and Charles had in their youth. Lelouch was a wonder to watch in secret, especially at play with his siblings. They were all so kind to one another and it seemed odd becuase so many years ago siblings as many as there were in front of me plotted one anothers death with no problem but these children seemed so much different. I marveled at the smile of Lelouch as he looked at Nunally and didn't let his sight leave from her. It was so protective and in an odd way so touching. They spoke of who would be in line for the throne and what their wishes were for their kingdom once they took the postion. In the end they all gave the same answer of wanting a peaceful world.
          My mind continued to wander on the children especially Lelouch when suddenly I heard a voice run through my head..."She will die..." It was V.V's voice and I ran as fast as I could to save my Marianne...the woman who would grant my desire. Gunshots filled the silence and I continued to run..thinking greatefully that all the children had been sent away to ettiquite training in another area. Tears streamed down my face and I wished for it not to be true and when I got there Marianne was bleeding on the steps, the body gaurds also bloody. I could hear her breathing and walked towards her. Where was V.V? My question was soon answered when before I could get to her, V.V grabbed me and shot me in the stomach. The pain burned and I fell on my knees as the burning began and he shot her once more and blood splattered everywhere. I look up at him when my pain has receded and say angrily, " WHY ?...Why did you have to kill her...ANSWER ME?!?!" V.V just smiled and said, "She was in the way of our plan...Don't worry though...Charles will kill you when all this is over...so, don't worry...it will all go according to plan..." This had gone so wayward..I didn't want it to be this complicated but, it ended up being that way all the same. I got up slowly walked towards him and slapped him. "She was mine and you had no right to do what you did....so, you can continue this facade and lie as much as you like but, I shall not be a part of this. Just MARK MY WORDS... you will regret this betrayal."
       I went upstairs to Marianne's room got my things from the closet and heard the door open as I was about to take off the bloodied clothes. I heard a small voice whisper, "C.C look at me.." I turned and saw a little girl in Marianne's room.  I was about to turn around and pay no attention to her when she said, "Thank you for this power....now... I can never die..." The little girl began to laugh and immediately the little girl plopped herself on the bed and whispered, "C.C are you leaving?" I began to dress myself in something clean put the other clothes in a corner and packed my things. The little girl said, " Well, I am guessing that is a yes....C.C I can still grant your wish...please, stay." I zippered the suitcase and looked up at her and said, "No." She replied, "Why?" " You insolent little brat, you may be royalty but I am no longer your play toy. You can not TOY with me when you feel the desire. Marianne you made a great big mistake by making your feelings for Charles and the plan comingled in your heart. It would be an even bigger mistake for me to stay in this stuffy palace and go along with whatever scheme you and Charles will create to get yourselves out of this. I will no longer be the one to win but only the two of you. This plan seems good but, you shall now do it on your own." I replied coldly and she sat there smiling. As I walked to the door she walked behind me and followed me until I was at the back entrance. Then she giggled and said, " I will go away into this girl's unconciousness but I will always speak to you and you can not escape me.. I will let you leave but, one day we will meet again...Don't forget it's until I die that the pact is void. So, don't think I will not find you..." I turned and looked at this haughty little royal and said nothing.  I just walked away towards a life without the politics and lies...with a purpose to die...
        All I heard as I continued to walk and the sun shone above was screams and tears...and if I concentrated a little more...laughter...the laughter of Marianne. Then when I passed the hill I heard... I heard...nothing..nothing but the wind.

The blood...no matter how many times I try to hold it and keep it locked away in my past the sight of myself and all that blood just makes me numb all over. I trusted her and then she told me it was all a lie...and I thought...I thought she cared for me. The look on her face was of madness and I couldn't figure out where it had come from...she scared me at that moment. I fought against her even though I didn't want to...I don't want to think about it because it was...I was used! 
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Everyone is used...I am using Lelouch to kill me the way the nun used me to kill her. This is a never ending cycle but, as I begin to spend more and more time with Lelouch I see his tenderness which by now would be gone in so many of the others. Maybe, because he is "her" son...maybe that makes him different..or maybe it is something that I have lost the ability to comprehend after so many years of  being lost in this desire which has mad me blind to it's identity. Can love of any kind truly keep someone sane through the carnage and destruction that occurs all around? 
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I watched him and his friend...they couldn't see me but I could clearly see them...in their youthful joy and curiousity at the Knightmares flying above them that would later cause chaos in their worlds...even...death. They smile...and I stare at their innocence..knowing that one day it will be gone and that they will be pitted against one another...yet in an instant my thoughts whisper one thought...silently..sweetly.."They will survive...they...will...stay...strong." Then it gone to the back of my mind but leaving me to ponder in confusion...how can those who are meant to fight stay together through that...Maybe...if I do something to help him and protect when I can...they can survive.
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Death in all it's glory still brings about one thing...peace...but as I continue to stand by him...I know that the pact will not be the only thing that keeps me by his side...but something else...that I am blind to and something I am not...